I don’t really have anything new to report, or no new plans, besides the ones I have written about on my most recent blogs. Yet, I still feel the urge to blog.
I’m hoping this will help with my “funk.” See, I have been in a “funk” since the beginning of the year. I don’t know if it has to do with not liking my classes this quarter, or the fact that it’s been raining every day since Jan. 1, or the fact that none of my romantic prospects are turning out, or the fact that I was told I’m not getting a raise this year despite the fact that I have worked my a** off the past year and been promised one. Hmmm… it could be any of those things. Now that I think about it, that’s a lot of things that could be causing it.
Still… there’s this lingering unhappiness and feeling like I should try something different. You know that they say insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I feel like that is what I have been doing the past 6 (well, 3 for sure!) years here and I need to change. I’ve tried little changes but I think I need to bring on a big change.
I am so impatient that it’s killing me to wait for this change. I promised myself that I would have a “thinking period” of 6 months (going on month #2!) and not make any rash decisions. I would just do research. Then in 6 months (marked my calendar for June) I would make a decision.
Problem is, it’s killing me to wait for June.
But, most likely, if I begin actually doing the stpes in my plan, I shouldn’t be so frustrated.
Back to my main point…I’m hoping this blogging takes away the need to go to therapy these next few months. While I definitely feel it could be of some benefit, I have neither the funds or the time to commit to therapy at this point.
If come June I am the same, or heaven forbid, worse, I will have to elicit the support of an actual medical professional, rather than this blog.
