when you’re down & out September 5, 2007

life sucks when you’re overwhelmed by everything and  you have no one to share or commisserate with. No, scratch that… I have several friends to share and commisserate with but no S.O. and that’s what’s bothering me. Why? I am a perfectly capable independent women yet I feel like something is missing when I don’t have an S.O.! Is that normal? I think this feeling is magnified by the fact that I am being pulled in every direction by every facet of my life and I’m struggling to see the good in things right now. Usually an S.O. figures into the good side of things. But can’t I make myself happy? I tried doing things that “bring me joy” which was recommended to me… I’ve tried shopping, getting a massage, hanging out with friends and family, yoga, working out, etc. but none of them bring the same type of joy. I know you’re supposed to be a complete person and not need someone to “fill the void” but what if you just WANT someone to fill it and don’t necessarily need it. I mean, I’m not going to die if I don’t get an S.O. anytime soon. Lord knows I am picky enough for myself by not accepting just anyone and so am holding out for the “right” one. So what’s a girl to do? Suffer in silence? I’m almost considering comprimising some things here just to have someone to give me a hug when I come home at night! Is that utterly ridiculous?!